Psalm 121:7-8

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

Prayer Request I Sent Out

Hi faithful prayer warriors,



Just me again asking for prayer for my health - I am looking forward to my resurrected body.



I have had some tests and scans done this week that show the fluid in my abdomen is back in full force. Next Wednesday I consult with the gyn oncologist to schedule an exploratory surgery to determine the cause. They think it is scar tissue that has set up residence without my permission around my right ovary. I'll know more next week, but it sounds like he plans to remove the scar tissue/fibrous cyst thingy during surgery as well as look around for any other causes of fluid collection.



My primary care physician also noted a slight abnormality with my right kidney as well so starting Sunday I have to collect urine for 24 hours so they can test renal function. I will the indignities never end? If you come over Sunday, don't drink the lemonade in the fridge. :)



At this point, they don't think it is cancer. I'd just like to have full use of my abdominal cavity again. Breathing deep is not natural right now and I am just enough uncomfortable to make me feel like not doing much, but when I lay on the couch I feel good enough that I feel lazy for lying around.



And prayer about our move:

No bites on the house, lots of lookers though. And we are not wealthy enough nor think it wise to extend ourselves to purchase home in Powers before this one sells. The one we thought we had lined up to rent fell through and there are no other rentals that we know about. I feel stuck. I know God wants us in Powers, but I can't see the master plan. At this point we are planning to set up base at in Butte Falls near or with Kayne’s parents since it is closer to Powers than Nehalem is. Kayne will live in the locker room or under the bridge in Powers during the week and see the rest of us on weekends.



Waiting is tough. I'm not quite understanding on a practical level how waiting on the Lord will renew my strength. I feel weak and sucked dry at the moment. :) But just as so many time God led his children to a place where they could not see a way out, I know he will take care of us.



Thank you!



Tanya

Ultrasound results and tests

Dr. Tseng's nurse finally called back. Yes, there is fluid. There is also a fiberous cystic mass around my right ovary. They think it is scar tissue from surgery, but he wants to see me and schedule an exploratory lapcroscopic procedure to break up the tissue and look around. The appointment is next Wednesday at noon.

Dr. Werner called immediatly afterwards with the same idea about how to proceed. She also noted a small abnormality on my right kindey as well. To rule out Kidney problems she ordered a 24 urine test.

Christy took me up to the lab for the test. No blood drawn but I went home with a care package of a hat and large bottle. The hat sits in the toilet and collects urine which I then transfer to the large bottle and refrigerate. If you are planning to visit soon, please do not drink from the large bottle of lemonade in the fridge.

I can't start the test until Sunday mornign since they need 24 hours of urine starting in the morning and they are closed on Saturday.

If there is kidney problems, that would explain the lower right back tenderness.

So the earliest it looks like will be feeling better is not next week, not the week after (dr. Tseng is gone) but the week after that. I'll probably know more after next week's appointment.

Meanwhile how am I supposed to finish packing when I have no energy. If I was a genie or something I coudl wiggle my nose and get the things done that I look aroudn the roo mand wish I had energy to do.

And its not like I am living in dire pain - it is hard to explain. I feel "fine" while sitting down, but the thought of walking upstairs seems like big task. I can do it though. So how much do I keep pushing and how much do I jsut rest?

God, you have taken me through a valley or two. I know you will lead me though this one. Give me your grace to trust in your timing.

Water Weight

Its back. I have proof it is not all in my head. My untrained eye says that it is nearly the same amount as before I was drained last time.

The tech said my ovaries look fine - so I hope that means to early menopause for me.

Still, I feel crappy with no energy. Yet I need to pack. Kayne needs to be in Powers 2 weeks. We have no home there. I have no energy to pack anymore.

God, I don't understand.

So now I wait for Dr. Tseng - or I bug him tomorrow - to see when I can get this drained and get my energy back again.

My head is spinning

literally

vertigo I guess

I have an ultrasound tomorrow to derermine if the 10 lbs I have gainedin 12 weeks is fluid in my abdomin or on my thighs.

my pants don't fit either way.

tonigt I feel dizzy and spinny

last night my dreams/nightmares centered aroung vomitting - being vomitted on and me vomitting.

be my strength, god. I am nothing - literally - with out you.

Beautiful

Aaron, Kathrynn and Advid were baptized by dad today.

David could hardly wait to get in the water and sounded a resounding "YES" when asked if her accepted Jesus as his Savior.

Tears.

Thank you Lord that three of my children are Yours eternally. Not by what I have done, but only by your grace

Heading home tomorrow - where ever home is.

A bite

Our first serious house looker.

Lord, selfishly I want thsi to be the one who buys.

Your will, not mine.

Aaron, Kathrynn, and David are being baptized tomorrow. They are so excited. I'm glad it is a happy time for them. We talkead bout baptism tonight which went well except when they asked what a eunich was. Shame on me for brinign it up. :)

We head hoem to Nehalem monday by way of Powers. Kayne is visiting hte football coach.

We spent the afternoon boating with Pam and the kids. Lots of fun!

Hiking

We had a great day hiking near Prospect, OR. We saw waterfall and climbed boulders. KAthrynn got the courage to slide down a boulder.

On the hosue front, I feel like our buying realtor is tired of our insistance of looking at houses. Yes, I know no one will let us rent, but let us do out home works so that when somehting happens with the nehalem house we are armed with info to make na offer in Powers.

Why can' we be in Powers already? My heart yearns to be settled there and get to knwo our new community. I don't get it.

Psa 68:19 Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens.

My burden is for a home in Powers. Take that burden from me God so I cna be joyful before you.

I guess that mean laying it down daily.

Last night we watched an awesome lightning display. Gos is powerful.

You timing is perfect, God.

Realtors

I knwo there must be nice realtors out there, but at thsi exact moment I am quite distrustful of them.

Our realtor hasn't put up more pictures of our hosue as promised and I can't even get the link to our listing to work. She seemed not happy to hear from me. Why do I just not trust this?

Our buying realtor is working hard tryign to find a hosue for us. But she talks to the listing realtors. Do they really take our information back to their clients or to the jsut say, "No, they don't want to do that." Like an athlete's manager, they are in this for money. Do they really tell their client the truth?

Can I trust our own realtor?

This is crap.

So the summary is this:

Unless our house sells, we can't buy in Powers.

If we can't buy in Powers, I can't move to Powers because no one rents out houses in Powers.

If I cant' move to Powers, I cant' teach.

If I can't teach, there goes any extra income that may have helped us buy.

So unless our hosue sells . . .


I really don't see any way outof this vicious cycle until our house sells. And I have a realtor who is preoccupied.

crap

I don't know what to do. God, show me the next step.

Update

I don't know who will ever read this, but even if no one reads it, it will be a journal of thsi experience.

Update: We drove home last weeken - just kayne and I - to clean and pack some more. We were busy beavers but got it looking great. Making the drive without this kids was rather refreshing.

I think I will ban all colored liquids and drawing supplies from our next house.

On tuesday we drove to Powers to visit Jody the principal at Powers. He and hsi girlfriend had a baby the day before and it was so neat to see how excited he was about the beauty of the whole process. He took us around town to see other properties for sale. We saw place we really liked:

http://homes.realtor.com/search/listingdetail.aspx?zp=97466&ml=3&typ=7&sid=0d3ac776e58c4dba92c14e766999a215&lid=1083704998&lsn=4&srcnt=10#Photo

I need to back on a pc to make these links work and to easily post pictures.



We are having Mariah, the realtor helping us, run the offer by them. Rent to us please!!

No word on offers on our Nehalem house.

Finally, I may be teachign part time thsi fall! Powers lost their science teacher. Sounds exciting, yet challenging. I have stipulated that it only be part time and in the mornign when David is at Kindergarten. Great - not I'd have to take credentialing classes!


We are having a great time wiht Gabe, Kathliene, Micah, & Fiona. I can't believe it will be 3 years that they wil lbe gone! they will be teens by then! Hopefully we will get to visit them.

Big news, little town

Coming home from church we found news vans in the mohler store parking lot. guess there are some missing people they have traced to the Nehalem Bay Winery a the place they were last spotted.

The stupid helicoptic didn't turn to take a picture of our house, but Kayne might mow "FOR SALE" in the front lawn jsut in case they fly over again.

http://www.kgw.com/video/video-index.html?nvid=155754

http://www.kgw.com/news-local/stories/kgw_062907_news_missing_priest_friend_update_.280f615e.html

Looks like they found the car. Wow.

Miracle Fish

We have been gone from the Nehalem house for 10 days or so. The cats stayed behind and they get weird without human interaction - thank God for Tammy to come love on them once in a while.

I am frantically vacuuming to prep for spot cleaning the upstairs carpet. aaron has a guppy bowl in his room. I walk in to find the takn tipped over but no evidence of water anywhere. Great - ti must have happened days ago. Rest in peace little fishy.

I turn the bowl upright trying to decide what to do with it and to find any evidence a dead fish tht needs to be removed before decomposition starts.

There it is flopping in the bottom of the bowl. What the heck?

I quickly fill the bowl with tap water hoping the chlorine won't kill it - but if itcan live without water, it shoudl be able to survive a little chlorine, right?

It is a happy fish again.

But now I wonder who to move it when it comes time - except it won't need water to move I guess.